Monday, December 21, 2009

35. 1st trip- Scotland and London

this is my very first own-planned trip. will be going to Scotland from 21 dec 09 to 27 dec 09 and London from 28 dec 09 to 2 jan 10. so i'll be missing for awhile as i enjoy my time there..hehe...

so bye for now=)

34. unexpected snow in plymouth=)

i was hibernating under my thick blanket when i heard the phone ringing. really felt so lazy to answer it but finally gave up cause the noise was too irritating..hehe...at the other end of the line, kanch was shouting excitedly for me to go out NOW!!! there's finally SNOW!!!!

literally ran out stopping only to grab my jacket. nothing else occured to me anymore besides going out and admiring it..hehe..---me being a jakun at the sight of snow..i have been waiting for it to snow for ages and it finally happened=) can never be able to describe the joy of it.. can only thank God for answering my prayers..it had definitely cheered me up a lot..these are the few photos that i managed to take before it got too cold...


was just light snow in the beginning




it snowed heavier...




the tree beside my house




later on jaryn and kanch suddenly came into my house and gave me my "boyfriend"..hahha..was really surprised..did not expect it at all..thanks so much=) and my task was to make it real..was afraid that it mite melt anytime so i grabbed anything i saw. then i noticed that it was still standing after some time..so i took my time to make it look better and not so scary..haha..





this was what they presented to me..





first draft of my "boyfriend"...i know it's ugly and scary..hehe..





an improvement of it..haha...more handsome??hahah..


final version..but i still feel the second one is the best..hee..



miss and love you!!


Thursday, December 17, 2009

33.winter solstice

every year i am blessed enough to be able to eat the "tong yuen" that my grandma made..loved messing around making funny shapes and colour with the tong yuen..missed it so very much..simply missed the warth of family gathering......


to comfort myself i bought myself some flour and started making it from scratch..heheh..it was not as easy as i thought it would be..the mixture was so so so sticky...myself to blame for that..haha..stupid mistake..but well after getting some extra pairs of hands from jaryn and kanch, we managed to come up with something presentable though the colouring was a bit dull..cheap ones right..can't expect much....but was very delicious for our very first try i guess..enjoyed eating it but wished i could be home making it with my por por...hehe..

thanks for helping out=)


our first tong yuen in plymouth!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

32. being patient

i'm sure my prayers would be answered in ways i least expect...and i have to be patient to see God's will unfold everyday, every hour, every minute, every second....

i have nothing else to hang on except for God's words and promises...no matter how sad, troubled, or how down i feel, i'll keep His promise close to my heart..

HE's my all in all.........

Friday, December 11, 2009

31. parcels of love

today i received my two big parcels from Malaysia=) have been waiting for it for two months now. didn't really expect it to reach so soon actually. but praise God that it reached me in good condition..hehe..was really super happy seeing all the things that was sent to me...all the food and clothes..and of course not forgetting the numbers of shoes..haha..

parcels filled with love=)



the amount of papers and boxes after opening up everything.

food.....




this is how frozen sesame oil look like..

THANK YOU MUMMY AND DADDY!!!

Friday, November 27, 2009

30. the story of three trees

this is a very simple story that someone had just told me..but it made me realised and i would like to share this with people..good things are meant to be shared, right?


Once upon a mountain top, three little trees stood and dreamed of what they wanted to become when they grew up. The first little tree looked up at the stars and said: " I want to hold treasure. I want to be covered with gold and filled with precious stones. I'll be the most beautiful treasure chest in the world!" The second little tree looked out at the small stream trickling by on it's way to the ocean. " I want to be traveling mighty waters and carrying powerful kings. I'll be the strongest ship in the world! The third little tree looked down into the valley below where busy men and women worked in a busy town. I don't want to leave the mountain top at all. I want to grow so tall that when people stop to look at me they'll raise their eyes to heaven and think of God. I will be the tallest tree in the world.

Years, passed. The rain came, the sun shone and the little trees grew tall. One day three wood cutters climbed the mountain. The first wood cutter looked at the first tree and said, "This tree is beautiful. It is perfect for me." With a swoop of his shining axe, the first tree fell. "Now I shall make a beautiful chest, I shall hold wonderful treasure!" the first tree said.

The second wood cutter looked at the second tree and said, "This tree is strong. It's perfect for me." With a swoop of his shining axe, the second tree fell. "Now I shall sail mighty waters!" thought the second tree. " I shall be a strong ship for mighty kings!"

The third tree felt her heart sink when the last wood cutter looked her way. She stood straight and tall and pointed bravely to heaven. But the wood cutter never even looked up. "Any kind of tree will do for me." He muttered. With a swoop of his shining axe, the third tree fell.

The first tree rejoiced when the wood cutter brought her to a carpenter's shop. But the carpenter fashioned the tree into a feed box for animals. The once beautiful tree was not covered with gold, or treasure. She was coated with saw dust and filled with hay for hungry farm animals. The second tree smiled when the wood cutter took her to a shipyard, but no mighty sailing ship was made that day. Instead the once strong tree was hammered and awed into a simple fishing boat. She was too small and too weak to sail to an ocean, or even a river, instead she was taken to a little lake. The third tree was confused when the wood cutter cut her into strong beams and left her in a lumberyard. "What happened?" The once tall tree wondered. " All I ever wanted was to stay on the mountain top and point to God..."

Many days and nights passed. The three trees nearly forgot their dreams. But one night, golden starlight poured over the first tree as a young woman placed her newborn baby in the feed box. "I wish I could make a cradle for him." Her husband whispered. The mother squeezed his hand and smiled as the starlight shone on the smooth and sturdy wood. " This manger is beautiful." She said. And suddenly the first tree knew he was holding the greatest treasure in the world.

One evening a tired traveler and his friends crowded into the old fishing boat. The traveler fell asleep as the second tree quietly sailed out into the lake. Soon a thundering and a thrashing storm arose. The little tree shuddered. She knew she did not have the strength to carry so many passengers safely through the wind and the rain. The tired man awoke. He stood up, stretched out his hand, and said, "Peace." The storm stopped as quickly as it had begun. And suddenly the second tree knew he was carrying the king of heaven and earth.

One Friday morning, the third tree was startled when her beams were yanked from the forgotten wood pile. She flinched as she was carried through an angry jeering crowd. She shuddered when soldiers nailed a man's hand to her. She felt ugly and harsh and cruel. But on Sunday morning, when the sun rose and the earth trembled with joy beneath her, the third tree knew that God's love had changed everything. It had made the third tree strong. And every time people thought of the third tree, they would think of God. That was better than being the tallest tree in the world.

The next time you feel down because you didn't get what you wanted, sit tight and be happy because God is thinking of something better to give you.

www.wordforlife.com


*things might not happen like what we had planned..but i'm very sure there is a reason behind everything..and prayers are answered in the way we least expect...

PRAISE GOD!!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

29. a toast

On friday the 13 we finally decided to drink our wine=) it was not to celebrate the event of bad luck..or was it to celebrate anything..we just felt that it was time to enjoy it as we had no more assignments to worry about for now..hee..or maybe the best reason was to warm ourselves--it was really cold cause there was a horrible storm outside...


we did not get drunk after one bottle but i just felt very happy cause it was my first time drinking with my friends=)haha..and need not worry...........we drank in the comfort of my house..not in some pubs with plenty of drunk british people...so we were very safe=)really had a great time of stress free...but too bad we didn't have cards with us..we shall bring it along the next time..here's some of our pictures.. i find them very special though there's nothing so special about it.....cheers!!!



my drinking buddies




jaryn





kanch



yours truly


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

28. something to look forward to..

i had planned to go back malaysia at least once in my 3-year stay here but i might be changing my plan for now..hehe..there's just too many things for me to explore here i guess..but who knows what will happen in future.........

my first trip that i'm looking forward to is my christmas holiday trip to SCOTLAND AND LONDON!!! ..heheh...we managed to finalise everything quite last minute but thank God everything worked out very well for us..we got cheap tickets even though it was quite near the date of our trip...we had some problems sorting out our accommodation in london due to the peak season but i gues everything is pretty much settled..PRAISE GOD!!!

i'm just feeling so excited..it's the first trip that we planned ourselves...to add to the excitement, we are going to Scotland!!! it's like so far from Plymouth but yet we managed to settle everything ourselves..(with some advice from our seniors though)..hehe...but really thank madam Nori who trained us to be so independent..hehe...had a lot of practises then organising trips around Malaysia..haha..missed the time she pressured us to be more efficient..haha..she really taught us well=)...

now that i have finish all my assignment that need to be handed up this year, i have nothing else to do but to look foraward and think of my trip...hahah..really pray that my camera will work despite the extreme weather there...praying hard for that...


HAPPY!!! HAPPY!!! and just feeling so relax and excited=)
thank God for these wonderful feelings...how good it is to be able to have these feelings at all times....praise god=)

oh by the way, i will be away from 21 dec 09 to 2 jan 10...

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

27. a SURPRISE!!!

i am sure it would be a surprise for those who really know me to find out that i will be going to portsmouth to watch a FOOTBALL match. notice the word FOOTBALL is being highlighted.



a girl who had never in her entire life took any notice of football is paying to go watch one. a girl who don't even know who is in blue and who is in red when liverpool played against chelsea.. i cannot believe it either. i got no idea what got into me. but i did it willingly.hahha...it's just for the experience of it i guess..to try to understand what is all the fuss about..hee...



anyway the match i will b watching is portsmouth vs man u...it's on 28 nov 2009




don't have any team to support but i think i will rather support portsmouth..hee..since man u have so many fans already...won't need my cheers..lol...



haha..i still can't believe it....hope it will be a great game=)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

26. angels without wings

just want to thank God for blessing me with so many "wingless angels". He sends them to me when He knows i needed them the most.


they will always appear at the right time..the time when i'm at the lowest or when i needed someone to talk to...the time when i needed a shoulder to cry on..the time when i just needed someone beside me..even the time when i needed a hug, an angel appears at my doorstep offering me the best hug of comfort ever...can't thank these angels enough...they are just wonderful creatures that so happen exist in my life...

i'm sure my life will be so lonely and meaingless without these beautiful angels........



THANKS A MILLION FOR EVERYTHING ANGELS!!!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

25. deepa-raya celebration








had a very busy weekend but it was difinitely a great one=)one that has plenty of food..yummy yummy...



Friday

at night we had a deepavali gathering in my senior's house-preena and sangeetha.the food was just superb.it was abit too spicy for me but i still enjoyed it a lot.the atmoshere was just so malaysia though i'm miles and miles away.had a great chance to watch a live magic show too.hehe..the magician was no other than Chee Loong.we were all so amazed.hehe..felt like a jakun actually..but the tricks he did were just different.anyway i'm sure everyone who came had a wonderful time.thanks to all those who had contributed in terms of food,cleaning up and entertaining.










Saturday

it was another night of partying.went out to city and met up with kanch and everyone else.all the Indians in Plymouth were gathered in a CHURCH to celebrate the festival of light=)notice the word church.there's no temple in Plymouth so they will have a different venue.but i guess the venue makes no difference at all.hehe.ad it was another night of good food...yum...








after the event, we had to wait for the bus in the cold.but it was all in all a great experience of being in the city at night.by the way it's as dead as taiping at night.hehe..makes no difference.







Sunday




we had a great event involving everyone. every house contributed in different ways.it was like a gotong-royong thing.hehe.some local students were invited to join in as well.fun fun fun!!!!!


















thanks jaryn for the beautifuls photos you have taken..hehe..





Wednesday, October 7, 2009

24. joining in and having fun

went for CU(Christian Union) yesterday and it was real fun. met a few interesting people and i hope i will be meeting more in time to come. had a great worship and i honestly felt that the worship leader was talented. he could play the guitar and sing with his amazing voice. everything was just exciting there. even the speaker was interesting and fun.hehe...

oh and today i signed up to be a member of the sport centre where i can play badminton and also use the gym. not sure how it will turn out but i'm really looking forward to sweat more.have not been sweating at all since i arrived. i guess it's a bad sign. a chance for me to flatten my tummy and tone the muscles...lol...

hope to do some volunteering work too. will try to sign up for something this evening...shall see how it goes...

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

23.thoughts

class had finally begun after one week of induction.

had managed to settle down better now in terms of the accommodation. but now i have to start getting used to the classes here where their system is a bit different here. not as boring as malaysia's but it still needs some adjustment.

and i guess because of the free and easy life here i've got plenty of time to think. important thoughts and just pure useless and unimportant ones. simply got very frustrated and pissed at times over little things. but i just can't seemed to express it clearly. that's just me i supposed: thinking of every possible feedback before i'm brave enough to voice things out.

i'm tired of many things but i'll just have to hold back my feelings and thoughts and let things be according to God's will. there must be a reason behind what i'm going through now. and i still believe that there will always be a silver lining behind every clouds (*it's really a very beautiful sight)...

cheers!!!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

22. great cooking experience=)

farah and i were supposed to cook dishes together but there was a very sudden change of plan. and so i have to cook myself with apparently nothing to cook with apart from some vegetables, eggs and onions. it was really a mission impossible but there came a few superheroes who came to my rescue. a million thanks to jaryn, kanch and hyder. glad that all of you came to help out. i was really happy that we came up with a meal with nothing...=)


thank God that i have such super supportive friends....and not forgetting my housemate who finished up the meal even though she was so tired....hehe...


thanks people!!!!!!


and so this is the fried rice that i served for dinner...supposed to cook dishes but this is what we manage to serve...hee...

does not look very tempting but it does not taste that bad. really.=P

Friday, October 2, 2009

21. the chosen path

this photo was taken in Dartmoor.




This is the new path that I have chosen. I will walk along it bravely with God’s guidance not having the slightest idea what I will have to face: storm, extreme weathers, hurricanes….


Neither do I have the slightest idea how long will this path be. I do not even know where it will lead me to. But I will still always trust that God knows what is best for me at all times. Many times I thought that God made the wrong choice for me but I was so wrong. When things do not happen as what I planned, it does not mean that it is not good. It was just not the right timing for me. His plans is and will forever be the best for me=). That is His promise!!!



For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11)



So regardless of any obstacles, I will still carry on my journey in search of what is best for me with the ever glowing light and wisdom from the Creator. It might not be easy at times but I believe that God will not lead me into anything that is too big for me to solve. He knows me best and I’m sure He knows that I am able to handle the situation before presenting it to me on my journey along the path.

The path may appear easy and straight but i will never find out what is ahead until I have taken the first few steps in front. Now that i have taken the first few baby steps, i will soon find out what God has prepared for me ahead. One at a time. Slowly and patiently as God will reveal it to me one by one.

So, I’ll be a faithful tracker along the path enjoying God’s blessings, grace and mercy. He will lead me through my journey along the path making sure that I will survive every ordeal that ever comes my way. And I will never be a quitter along the journey. Praise God=)

20.contacts

i've finally uploaded some photos in my facebook...most of it my friends with better cameras have done that and tagged me...so it saved me the trouble of uploading..heheh..but the line here is rather fast compared to malaysia...so it doesn't really take a very super long time to put in more photos..

anyway i got the chance to go to the town today and i got myself a line...so that it'll be much cheaper and convenient for me to contact people here...i'm still finding and waiting for a better option of calling home:cheaper or even better free...=)

and so my new number is 07879358348

it is very different from malaysia where we can choose our own number..here, they just give you a number and that's yours...hehe...they do not even display any number for you to see...you want a number and here it is..take it or leave it...lol..so it's a good thing that my number is quite easy to remember especially for a forgetful person like me...

that's all for now...more updates as days come...
**still get hungry very very often...too often perhaps.....

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

19. a very new chapter

i finally got to update my blog after so many days..

Day 1

i arrived here in st mark & st john after 13 hours of flight and 6 hours on bus...it was quite a long journey but thank God we arrived safe and sound=)it was really a challenge dragging a 30 kg bag to my house..hee...but managed to do it somehow....good thing i don't have to carry it up flights of stairs though...

got settle down and unpacked all my things...walked around and explored part of the campus...didn't really know where we were going cause we had no idea where is where(me being poor in directions)...

had a gathering cum dinner with the seniors..finally got to meet them after contacting each other for so long..heheh...went for a campus tour in the dark with a few of the great and friendly seniors...can hardly see anything but got a very rough idea on where is where...will have to figure that out tomorrow...

slept rather early cause of jetlag...have to get used to the time difference...hehe...


Day 2

cooked our first meal today...fried rice for breakfast cum lunch...

started our orientation and there were a lot of talks...but it was very different from Malaysia as they are very particular with time..therefore they will stop when it is time instead of going on and on telling the same thing and wasting our precious time to eat or sleep..the weather here is pretty much like Cameron when it rains...chilly but fun..hehe...but it can get very chilly when the wind blows...some of the lecturers said that it is considered warm to them and that we still do not understand the meaning of cold yet...wonder how cold can it be when it is winter...

had a very wonderful lunch with the lecturers..lots of wonderful food..maybe cause i was feeling hungry all the time....i ate very big portion but it took only a few hours before my stomach starts its music again...gosh....had heavy breakfast but ate so much again for lunch...


Day 3

had bread with sardine for breakfast..and went for an official campus tour with steve...it was fun time....came back for lunch break but there was nothing to eat..felt so pathetic that i have to "beg" for food...lol..thanks uncle for your cupcake=)...it was really delicious...but it now sounded like any food is heaven to me...heheh..had another talk from the student union and came home to set up my wireless connection..heheh...finally i got to online after so many days...=)

just cause the line was good and all of us were able to access the internet, we had a conference on skype...felt so nonsense as we were so nearby but yet skype-ing each other...hehe...can't help it cause the far ones at home are sleeping soundly...heheh...so will have to wait for the right time to be able to talk with them online....

had a great and delicious dinner with the seniors in House 26...nice time meeting them as they just came back from Malaysia for a 2 month break..yummy yummy...=)


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just for information, i'm now staying with 3 other malaysian housemate...2 seniors (kak jah and kak ab)and another one my classmate from ipkb(farah)....everything is so far so good...will still be having my orientation...tomorrow we will have the chance to go visit Princetown in Dartmoor and Tavistock...

have not organised my photos yet...will upload some photos when i'm done doing it...feeling kinda lazy for that now...lol...

thanks again everyone for all your kind wishes...i'm doing great here...will continue to update my blog if i'm not too busy yet..heheh

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

18. surprised farewell

It has been a really busy and hectic day for me but it was worth it=)

At first I thought I was only meeting up with a very close friend, g…we went around taking our own sweet time hanging around the ‘mall’….i really felt suspicious when you told your “friend” that I was buying shoes but it never occur to me at all that you were all trying to throw me a surprise farewell..hehe..thanks so much you guys…and I didn’t notice the people sitting there waiting at Old Town till we stood right in front of the table..i was so blurr then that I was amazed to think that g actually wanted to share a table with other people..hahah…

I truly sincerely appreciate all your efforts…to everyone that showed up…

sowann, sushan, jolyn, yeevan and of course g..

and to those who can’t make it, thanks for your kind thoughts..=)

it didn’t occur to me that this farewell was possible cause I knew many were not around…but hey this surprise did cheer me up a lot…really it meant a lot to me…it was a rainbow after a very bad storm…thanks so very much to all of you…am really grateful to have such great friends…thank God for today and may God bless all of you…

sorry that my thoughts are in a mess..am really sleepy and didn’t bother checking…just wanted to expres my gratitude to everyone for a wonderful and memorable day…by the way in case you’re wondering, the cake still looks ok when I got back…hehe..i didn’t melt…=)

Saturday, September 19, 2009

17. my precious time...

I have started my countdown way before the 100th day…waiting eagerly yet not wanting it to come so fast….i realised it’s weird to have 2 contradicting feelings and emotion at the same time but I really can’t help it…


I am no longer counting down the days for my departure…I guess time is moving too fast..so fast that I can’t keep up with it anymore…or rather I’m afraid to even keep count cause it is arriving too soonTOO SOON….TOO SOON.....but this is the fact....for now.....


10080 minutes….
168 hours…..
7 days…..
1 week….

Saturday, September 12, 2009

16. you're right

this post has nothing to do with the worries that i have been going through lately..



it's just that i finally realised that the person i always thought knew me very well has in fact never existed in my life..i thought that i was so blessed to have someone who understands me so well..so much so that i need not say anything and the person can guess what will be my next move...but i found out that it is not the case of understanding at all.......great disappoinment...but at least i found out the truth now...


so my dearest friend, i guess you're 101% right about having someone who understands you well enough..someone who will know you inside out without having to say a word..words can be messy at times especially when you're just not in a mood to explain things..so i guess being predictable can be a good thing at times eh?hehe..and it's really not easy to find someone who sincerely cares and understands you well....so thanks for predicting me the other day...=)


you're those rare friends who always have a special place in my heart....thanks again!!!

Friday, September 11, 2009

15. hoping........

just got the latest news that he will be going in again on this coming Tuesday (15 Sept 09)....sigh..

not sure how will it be this time..will they be able to take everything out--things thats have been a parasite living in him for years?

his parents will be going down to KL this Sunday..i hope that they will stay strong in handling their emotions and health..i won't be there to see him..but even if i go what help can i be...i might break down in my best effort of putting on a strong face...i hate to admit the fact that i'm more fragile than i look..tears streaming down easily as i see my loved ones being worried and upset..especially the one being the centre of attention now...

suddenly the word DEATH seemed like a very big word..no one knows God's planning..we live everyday taking so many things for granted always thinking that we will have another tomorrow..but how can we be so sure of that fact..it's just a HOPE..we plan for our activities tomorrow HOPING that we will have another day to enjoy the wonders of God's creation..we HOPE to wake up the next day everynight before we sleep..we HOPE we can go through the whole day safely..we HOPE that we will meet our family everyday after work..

HOPE HOPE HOPE
such a crucial word in times of trouble...it is the only word that we can hold on to...such a strong word to keep us going everyday...HOPE is all i have now...and of course God...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

14. the game of waiting

so i finally got the updates of it..

they can't do much because apparently they open up the wrong side..as in they can't get to it because of a membrane..so the game of waiting continues..we have to wait another 2 weeks for him to gain freedom..and another month before the major waiting starts again..and we have no idea how the history might repeat itself..

but really thankful that he is conscious again and he is talking..a very good sign i'm sure...and i pray that this good sign will not fade away..

i guess i won't be in malaysia when the next waiting-in-anxiety happens..but i sure hope that i will still get updates on it..i hope that the people i love will not hide any of it from me..



can i trust YOU in keeping me update on everything?
*i hope YOU know it's YOU*
*by the way, only YOU read my blog..
and i followed somebody's advice on eating ice-cream or chocolate to cheer myself...i bought plenty of ice-cream just so that i can chill myself when i'm feeling too hot with fear and worries...thanks again...
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT TOO=) REALLY APPRECIATE IT A LOT!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

13. what's next???


he's finally out after 8 hours...thank God he's alright...=)

but it seemed that it was considered unsuccessful because they didn't manage to get the thing out..and it makes me wonder what have they been doing for so long in there???

thank God that he came out as he is...but what's next now??what will they do to him now??

anyway i still haven't got the whole story yet..will update later..

thanks for all the prayers...keep praying please....

12. hoping and still hoping

things are still uncertain now...we are all still waiting for the outcome...i guess for now we can only depend on prayers and hope...these two have to go hand-in-hand for us to survive the nightmare of waiting and waiting..


time really seemed to crawl by very slowly....................
much slower than the slowest creature on Earth-sloth

but thank God a great friend came to my rescue...sharing half of my burdened heart..and he surely cheered me up so much...comforting me in many ways...thanks..though you won't be reading this

i always thought that i was strong enough to handle my emotions when it comes to this but i was so wrong of myself..i guess i overestimated myself..it was rather easy putting on a strong face when it is not discussed..but when this topic is mentioned it was not easy trying to hold back tears..tears of fear and worry...

it was even more heartbreaking to see the faces of his parents...they sure are worried but they can't do anything to help...in a way, it's a good thing for them not to be there with him...at least they don't have to see the face of their son in that condition...what more can i do to cheer them up..when i need someone to do that for me too...all i can do now is to spend more time with them...

still waiting for the time to come...it's like history is repeating itself again...where we had to wait 11 hours to see him again...how long more will it take?we have been waiting for 8 hours now...how long more???

Sunday, September 6, 2009

11. living by God's grace

i just came back from a great weekend in penang..had really enjoyed it a lot..thanks so much to man sok gong, man sok por, uncle lawrence and uncle calvin too..lol..but i guess only you will read..hope you'll pass the message to them again..hehe..i wished i had more time to spend with you all..


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but alas, my happiness ended in a blink of an eye..i was just informed with the news that all of us had dreaded so much...that his condition had just got worse...i'm not sure how his parents took it but they acted strong. And we are hiding the fact from them that he had gotten much worse than what we had told them...at least until things are confirm...
*if you are reading this i think you can guess what happen and who i meant..i hope you won't say anything to your parents till everything is confirm..please..i'm writing this just to inform you and you only.and solely cause i don't know where else i can express my concern and fear to....=(
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i really believe what someone had said before...that "our lives on Earth is just a loan from God. He the Almighty can take the loan back again anytime He feels like it"....can He spare this innocent soul the loan???pray for this soul that he will be covered by the mercy and grace of the great Creator....

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

10. The Lady

I saw a lady in her mid 30s the other day. This lady attracted my attention because she was pushing a heavy load of cardboards with two little kids no older than 5 years old tagging along. On top of that, she was carrying a baby in front of her strapped to her with a piece of cloth. It was such a sight that I cannot ignore.

I sincerely salute her for her strength and courage in making the most out of her life. She worked hard in order to survive in the city with 3 young children to care for. She could have an easy way out by just sitting by the roadside and beg. I’m sure generous Malaysians would have taken pity on her. But indeed she didn’t.

And it kept me wondering what I would do if I was put to test by the Creator to go through the same situation…. Maybe I would just sit and beg and hope that people will take pity of me… many times we complain over small problems… We complain that the food does not taste good. We complain that the weather is too hot or too cold. We complain that the internet connection is too slow. And the list definitely goes on…. Can’t we be thankful for everything that we have? At least we have food to fill our stomachs. At least our senses are still working to feel the weather. At least we have laptops to go online. We humans tend to view things on the negative side…can’t we try our best to think on the better side the next time we want to complain on anything…

This lady might have complained about her life a million times. But I guess she realised the fact that life still goes on no matter how much she complains. She has to make the changes for herself and the children. And so it is also up to us to make changes in our lives instead of just sitting there complaining and hope that the changes will happen overnight by itself..


Monday, August 10, 2009

9. in times of being tested

I can’t help but keep asking these questions repeatedly in my head..

Why do I always have to give up things that I have worked so hard for?
Why do I always have to give in to people’s demand or request?

I am just so sick of all these craps and rubbish..can’t they give in just for once???have they ever considered our feelings just for once??

True enough that I respect them in many ways but respect comes with certain boundaries and limitations..I can’t be giving up and giving in just so that they can achieve their goals all the time..I want to achieve mine too..

But then again, who am I to stop this unpredictable situation…if the little boy wants to swim, who am I to stop it from going into the water…I know the example don’t quite make sense but I am just trying to say that if someone has already decided on something I am a nobody to change the decision…so I guess all I can do is just to respect the decision and go along with it even if I do not agree with it..

All I can hope for is that things are not as bad as I thought it would be..pray that God will interfere and do what He thinks is best for me..this is just a frustrated ranting on the things that have been happening for quite some time..I am now suffering the consequences since I do not have the courage to stand firm on what I really desire……sigh….

Friday, July 31, 2009

8. new baby..

after planning for so long to have a camera i finally have the time and chance to go and hunt for one..my whole family actually went out with me in search of it..hehe..feel so lucky and happy seriously..

went to a shop to check out the price before going to pc fair..i spent a very long time there because of my indecisive nature..can't really decide which to buy as different people have gave very different opinions..was afraid to decide and regret on it as i always do..so i took a really really long time to think and decide..i bet the salesman was on the verge of losing his temper???hahah..

so in the end i bought
canon powershot A1000 IS.. i guess some people would never have thought that i would be getting one like this..i find it rather bulky but i guess the most important criteria in a camera is to produce quality photos??anyway..i'm really happy as i got a very good bargain and i finally own a camera of my own...hhahha..thank God for pc fair..and thank God that the salesman did not shout at me and had so much of patience..though i assume it was just for his business sake..heeheh....

this adds on to my collection of babies..
NUMBER 5

Friday, July 24, 2009

7. 64 days more

what have I done so far for my preparation?

I have been shopping for my warm clothings and thank God I got quite a good bargain for a few…and when it comes to shopping I am surely exposed to the temptation of buying things that are not so important…hehe..and praise God even though I have spent so much I still have another RM 3oo to buy things with..

I now have a huge luggage on my sis’s bed so that I can dump in anything that I can remember at that moment…heheh..knowing that I am an old granny, that was the only practical method to not forget anything…

Besides, I am also busy finding for more information about MARJON and Plymouth so that I will have a brief idea on things and what to expect…in other words I don’t want to look jakun there…lol

A lot more to do but I am still taking my own sweet time…hope I am able to settle everything in time…hhehe

Monday, July 20, 2009

6. unbeliveable??

had breakfast at Tops with sulin and teeni before teeni and i went to Convent school to have my cert translated....have not been going to my beloved school for quite some time..it's not that i feel out of place but rather i feel lonely going there alone knowing that there are so few teachers left for me to *kacau*...so many unfamiliar faces as i walked around in my alma mater...missed those times of visiting so many of my teachers...where everywhere i go i will meet a teacher that i know so well..

went straight to the office to settle the certs and we went to the staff room to see Pn Lim n Pn Cecilia..these two are our usual victims to kacau...hehe..always enjoyed talking to them as they were really like our close friends..joking and crapping about almost everything..learnt a new way to curse today:



the F word can well be substitute with frog and fish...


it really rhymes well when you say it fast enough..hehe..it's tested and proven..



yiphing joined us later and we hunted down another victim---the most sporting and amazing teacher Mr Chan..used to even call him daddy..lol..
after that we visited our second home in school---the library---..used to spend most of my free time in school in the library..knowing me well enough i don't go there to read books but rather to kacau the then library teacher...sadly she no longer holds that post and we don't feel so at home without her there..sobs sobs..



Pn Lim treated yiphing,teeni, szewei and me to McD and believe it or not it is my very very very first time eating a whole McD burger..hehe..with a special order of course..without mayo..hhihi..and it is written Made For You ..heheh..sounds so special..lol..thanks Pn Lim..


my specially made burger



went back after pit stop at tesco to buy my favourite sushi=) had a really great day..thank God

Sunday, July 19, 2009

5. Thou shalt not fear

Those who know me well enough should know that my greatest fear was to stand in front of a crowd and speak..but this fear is slowly losing its control on me thanks to all the training of speaking in front of the class..hehe..public speaking, forum, debate…

And to prove me of my fear, God finally decided to put me in for a test..hehe..i was the scripture reader for the day and I was sure nervous....my scripture was from Psalms 20:1-9..and it definitely suits me in many ways..

4. May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.
7. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.

Perhaps it is a way God is sending me His message? I shall not worry as He knows the deepest desire of my heart and He will surely provide for me to make all my plans succeed..that is His promise to His children..and I shall trust in the name of the Lord in everything I do..easier said than done but I am still learning to surrender everything to Him..

Praise God that I managed to read it loud and clear without a single mistake…I guess with more practice I could be giving motivational talk to hundreds of students with no fear..a bit too ambitious though…but then again who knows what God has planned for me right?....AMEN!!!

Friday, July 17, 2009

4. money

Some people can be rather kind and helpful but when it comes to the mere mention of the word $MONEY$ they can be the most horrible person on earth..in the beginning I thought that it was just a small problem but when i have personally experienced it many many times I no longer see it as a problem but rather a lame reason..

Who on earth do not value money??but why is it that some people who are not so poor are giving more lame reasons compared to those even more deprived…

I might not truly understand the meaning of being poor [n I am really so thankful for that] but I really do not see it as a good reason for a student given allowance by the government to be complaining on that…if only they could spend their money more wisely???i guess that would be the perfect solution for them…and it will definitely make things so much easier for everyone…heheh…

so the next time before you even start complaining about money, think about those who are even poorer…those who die of hunger and cold..if you are not dying from hunger or cold then WAKE UP!!! and acknowledge that you are well blessed by God and be thankful for the things you can buy with the little money that you have…

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

3.happy Birthday che che..

Happy Birthday Che Che!!!!!


May God bless u abundantly in everything u do…u have definitely been a great sis…=)
Love you……..



Oh n I finally got rid of my P license yesterday….=) hahah…

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

2. thankful....

had a gathering with friends in the morning.and went for a movie after that.we practically occupied the whole cinema to ourselves..lol..

i have somehow grew to love the company of friends even more.maybe because i have realised the fact that in exactly 95 days more i won't be able to see these familiar faces anymore..il be meeting more friends(hopefully) but i'm sure none of them will be the same as these faithful friends who had been through so much of ups and downs in life with me..

meeting up with them brought back so many wonderful and childish memories..the nicknames we gave our teachers...oopss..hopefully in future my students will not give me nicknames too..hehe...lots and lots of memories were being recalled...love being a child again...*wink*

night went for the 'Korean Praise' in Wesley Methodist Church.Pastor Daniel Kim spoke and he made me realise how thankful i am to have great parents who love me alot in their own special ways...and it somehow reminded me also of how blessed i am to be able to further my studies in Plymouth,United Kingdom...what more can i ask for when He has given me so much...

thank God

Friday, June 12, 2009

1. the beginning of the journey


I am finally fulfilling my promise to many that I will start blogging....so here I am writing my first post about the start of my new journey..

I finally got the news that i have been waiting for..the news that i have passed my exam. No doubt that it is a simple exam for others but it sure does not seemed easy when I am the one sitting for it and waiting for the results. There is no formal black and white of my results yet but it is confirm. I guess that is what matters most. A sign of relief and joy fell upon me immediately and not forgetting how thankful I was then. Phewww...

A salute also to the ever hardworking and faithful lecturers who have been helping me all the time. I know that they had played a major role in ensuring that all of us pass our exam during the moderation..wonder what they had gone through the whole day there..hee..n thanks to them also I got to know my results so soon when many of my friends from other ipgm are still wondering and worrying about their results..they have always been so concern about us and I am so thankful that they inform us about the results immediately rather than putting us through more torture...hehe

So for now I have so much to prepare for my journey abroad and I am enjoying every single moment I have with my loved ones...God bless