51. regret

~It is human nature to want to go back and fix things or change things that we regret. ~

John Gray

even though there are things that i have regret doing,

i still strongly believe that everything happened for a great purpose..

i do wish i could change things in the past at times

but it is not confirm that i would not regret that change in choice..

so no matter what choice i have made,

it shall be my experience..

regardless of it being good or bad..

50. two paths

come on!!!

just one word from you and i can finally make my decision

to go on which path..

just ONE word...

and i will know what to do next...

49. let Your will be done..

"No eyes has seen,

no ear has heard,

no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him"

(1Corinthians 2:9)

i do not know what the future awaits me.

but i have always loved the suprises that He has prepared for me.

even when it was not something i had wanted,

i trust and believe that it is for my very best.

like what the mother says all the time in I Not Stupid-the movie

"it's all for your own good"

You have always provided me with so much.

i might not understand the things You do in my life,

but i have always come to realise that Your way is always the best.

You taught me new things from my own experience.

and it is from these experience that i learnt from my mistakes.

you may not be something i have ever dreamt of to have, but if my Father says you are for me then it shall be it..

AMEN!!

48. best homework ever!!

as a student in school, i remember wishing this every time i had to do my homework. i have always wished silently "if only my homework were to watch movies and drama series. and that my exams would be based on the drama series i have watched. if only this is true, then i would be the best scorer without even having to study or put in any effort". that was how much of time i spent in front of the TV that i was confident enough to admit that i could be the top scorer. what can i say..i was even nicknamed "the TV guide" in the family. i knew by heart what movie or drama at exactly what time. those were the days.....

anyway, my wish finally came true;) this year, i took Shakespeare on Film as my elective. my homework is to watch countless movies by this Great Man. yes, i had to admit that this wish was not exactly what i wanted..the movies can be super boring cause i can hardly understand the language used. and some of them are even in black and white. it can easily put one to sleep. but i have always find it a great accomplishment when i finally put the puzzles together and understand the message behind all those long and dull dialogue.

i have to admit that when this wish came true, it was nothing like what i had always dreamt of. it still felt like homework. and i had to force myself to do it. i had to stay focus and to analyse everything they do or say in the movies. it was nothing like watching a movie in our leisure time and just enjoying it..but what else can i ask for..i still enjoy it no matter how much i complained that it is dull and boring ;)

these are the movies i have to watch for this subject..mind you, it's not just four movies..it's more than that. each title has at least 2 movies to be watched. from different directors..so imagine watching the same storyline a few times again and again in less than a week..so there you go...serve me right for wishing so hard..;P

47. F.R.I.E.N.D.S

i know i am really bad at keeping in touch with the people who are so important in my life...sorry guys..just wanted to let you all know that though we are miles away and i hardly contact you, you are always being thought of..especially when i look back at our school-days photos..it never failed to paint a smile on my face..all the happy memories and crazy things we did back then..

MISS YOU ALL LOTS!!!

p/s: am looking forward to the day when we can finally all meet up and hang out again..

46. ;(

it made me feel really bad to know that i am the cause of your disappointment...