19. a very new chapter

i finally got to update my blog after so many days..

Day 1

i arrived here in st mark & st john after 13 hours of flight and 6 hours on bus...it was quite a long journey but thank God we arrived safe and sound=)it was really a challenge dragging a 30 kg bag to my house..hee...but managed to do it somehow....good thing i don't have to carry it up flights of stairs though...

got settle down and unpacked all my things...walked around and explored part of the campus...didn't really know where we were going cause we had no idea where is where(me being poor in directions)...

had a gathering cum dinner with the seniors..finally got to meet them after contacting each other for so long..heheh...went for a campus tour in the dark with a few of the great and friendly seniors...can hardly see anything but got a very rough idea on where is where...will have to figure that out tomorrow...

slept rather early cause of jetlag...have to get used to the time difference...hehe...


Day 2

cooked our first meal today...fried rice for breakfast cum lunch...

started our orientation and there were a lot of talks...but it was very different from Malaysia as they are very particular with time..therefore they will stop when it is time instead of going on and on telling the same thing and wasting our precious time to eat or sleep..the weather here is pretty much like Cameron when it rains...chilly but fun..hehe...but it can get very chilly when the wind blows...some of the lecturers said that it is considered warm to them and that we still do not understand the meaning of cold yet...wonder how cold can it be when it is winter...

had a very wonderful lunch with the lecturers..lots of wonderful food..maybe cause i was feeling hungry all the time....i ate very big portion but it took only a few hours before my stomach starts its music again...gosh....had heavy breakfast but ate so much again for lunch...


Day 3

had bread with sardine for breakfast..and went for an official campus tour with steve...it was fun time....came back for lunch break but there was nothing to eat..felt so pathetic that i have to "beg" for food...lol..thanks uncle for your cupcake=)...it was really delicious...but it now sounded like any food is heaven to me...heheh..had another talk from the student union and came home to set up my wireless connection..heheh...finally i got to online after so many days...=)

just cause the line was good and all of us were able to access the internet, we had a conference on skype...felt so nonsense as we were so nearby but yet skype-ing each other...hehe...can't help it cause the far ones at home are sleeping soundly...heheh...so will have to wait for the right time to be able to talk with them online....

had a great and delicious dinner with the seniors in House 26...nice time meeting them as they just came back from Malaysia for a 2 month break..yummy yummy...=)

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just for information, i'm now staying with 3 other malaysian housemate...2 seniors (kak jah and kak ab)and another one my classmate from ipkb(farah)....everything is so far so good...will still be having my orientation...tomorrow we will have the chance to go visit Princetown in Dartmoor and Tavistock...

have not organised my photos yet...will upload some photos when i'm done doing it...feeling kinda lazy for that now...lol...

thanks again everyone for all your kind wishes...i'm doing great here...will continue to update my blog if i'm not too busy yet..heheh

18. surprised farewell

It has been a really busy and hectic day for me but it was worth it=)

At first I thought I was only meeting up with a very close friend, g…we went around taking our own sweet time hanging around the ‘mall’….i really felt suspicious when you told your “friend” that I was buying shoes but it never occur to me at all that you were all trying to throw me a surprise farewell..hehe..thanks so much you guys…and I didn’t notice the people sitting there waiting at Old Town till we stood right in front of the table..i was so blurr then that I was amazed to think that g actually wanted to share a table with other people..hahah…

I truly sincerely appreciate all your efforts…to everyone that showed up…

sowann, sushan, jolyn, yeevan and of course g..

and to those who can’t make it, thanks for your kind thoughts..=)

it didn’t occur to me that this farewell was possible cause I knew many were not around…but hey this surprise did cheer me up a lot…really it meant a lot to me…it was a rainbow after a very bad storm…thanks so very much to all of you…am really grateful to have such great friends…thank God for today and may God bless all of you…

sorry that my thoughts are in a mess..am really sleepy and didn’t bother checking…just wanted to expres my gratitude to everyone for a wonderful and memorable day…by the way in case you’re wondering, the cake still looks ok when I got back…hehe..i didn’t melt…=)

17. my precious time...

I have started my countdown way before the 100th day…waiting eagerly yet not wanting it to come so fast….i realised it’s weird to have 2 contradicting feelings and emotion at the same time but I really can’t help it…


I am no longer counting down the days for my departure…I guess time is moving too fast..so fast that I can’t keep up with it anymore…or rather I’m afraid to even keep count cause it is arriving too soon…TOO SOON….TOO SOON.....but this is the fact....for now.....

10080 minutes….
168 hours…..
7 days…..
1 week….

16. you're right

this post has nothing to do with the worries that i have been going through lately..



it's just that i finally realised that the person i always thought knew me very well has in fact never existed in my life..i thought that i was so blessed to have someone who understands me so well..so much so that i need not say anything and the person can guess what will be my next move...but i found out that it is not the case of understanding at all.......great disappoinment...but at least i found out the truth now...


so my dearest friend, i guess you're 101% right about having someone who understands you well enough..someone who will know you inside out without having to say a word..words can be messy at times especially when you're just not in a mood to explain things..so i guess being predictable can be a good thing at times eh?hehe..and it's really not easy to find someone who sincerely cares and understands you well....so thanks for predicting me the other day...=)

you're those rare friends who always have a special place in my heart....thanks again!!!

15. hoping........

just got the latest news that he will be going in again on this coming Tuesday (15 Sept 09)....sigh..

not sure how will it be this time..will they be able to take everything out--things thats have been a parasite living in him for years?

his parents will be going down to KL this Sunday..i hope that they will stay strong in handling their emotions and health..i won't be there to see him..but even if i go what help can i be...i might break down in my best effort of putting on a strong face...i hate to admit the fact that i'm more fragile than i look..tears streaming down easily as i see my loved ones being worried and upset..especially the one being the centre of attention now...

suddenly the word DEATH seemed like a very big word..no one knows God's planning..we live everyday taking so many things for granted always thinking that we will have another tomorrow..but how can we be so sure of that fact..it's just a HOPE..we plan for our activities tomorrow HOPING that we will have another day to enjoy the wonders of God's creation..we HOPE to wake up the next day everynight before we sleep..we HOPE we can go through the whole day safely..we HOPE that we will meet our family everyday after work..

HOPE HOPE HOPE

such a crucial word in times of trouble...it is the only word that we can hold on to...such a strong word to keep us going everyday...HOPE is all i have now...and of course God...

14. the game of waiting

so i finally got the updates of it..

they can't do much because apparently they open up the wrong side..as in they can't get to it because of a membrane..so the game of waiting continues..we have to wait another 2 weeks for him to gain freedom..and another month before the major waiting starts again..and we have no idea how the history might repeat itself..

but really thankful that he is conscious again and he is talking..a very good sign i'm sure...and i pray that this good sign will not fade away..

i guess i won't be in malaysia when the next waiting-in-anxiety happens..but i sure hope that i will still get updates on it..i hope that the people i love will not hide any of it from me..

can i trust YOU in keeping me update on everything?

*i hope YOU know it's YOU*

*by the way, only YOU read my blog..

and i followed somebody's advice on eating ice-cream or chocolate to cheer myself...i bought plenty of ice-cream just so that i can chill myself when i'm feeling too hot with fear and worries...thanks again...

THANKS FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT TOO=) REALLY APPRECIATE IT A LOT!!!

13. what's next???

he's finally out after 8 hours...thank God he's alright...=)

but it seemed that it was considered unsuccessful because they didn't manage to get the thing out..and it makes me wonder what have they been doing for so long in there???

thank God that he came out as he is...but what's next now??what will they do to him now??

anyway i still haven't got the whole story yet..will update later..

thanks for all the prayers...keep praying please....

12. hoping and still hoping

things are still uncertain now...we are all still waiting for the outcome...i guess for now we can only depend on prayers and hope...these two have to go hand-in-hand for us to survive the nightmare of waiting and waiting..

time really seemed to crawl by very slowly....................

much slower than the slowest creature on Earth-sloth

but thank God a great friend came to my rescue...sharing half of my burdened heart..and he surely cheered me up so much...comforting me in many ways...thanks..though you won't be reading this

i always thought that i was strong enough to handle my emotions when it comes to this but i was so wrong of myself..i guess i overestimated myself..it was rather easy putting on a strong face when it is not discussed..but when this topic is mentioned it was not easy trying to hold back tears..tears of fear and worry...

it was even more heartbreaking to see the faces of his parents...they sure are worried but they can't do anything to help...in a way, it's a good thing for them not to be there with him...at least they don't have to see the face of their son in that condition...what more can i do to cheer them up..when i need someone to do that for me too...all i can do now is to spend more time with them...

still waiting for the time to come...it's like history is repeating itself again...where we had to wait 11 hours to see him again...how long more will it take?we have been waiting for 8 hours now...how long more???

11. living by God's grace

i just came back from a great weekend in penang..had really enjoyed it a lot..thanks so much to man sok gong, man sok por, uncle lawrence and uncle calvin too..lol..but i guess only you will read..hope you'll pass the message to them again..hehe..i wished i had more time to spend with you all..

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but alas, my happiness ended in a blink of an eye..i was just informed with the news that all of us had dreaded so much...that his condition had just got worse...i'm not sure how his parents took it but they acted strong. And we are hiding the fact from them that he had gotten much worse than what we had told them...at least until things are confirm...

*if you are reading this i think you can guess what happen and who i meant..i hope you won't say anything to your parents till everything is confirm..please..i'm writing this just to inform you and you only.and solely cause i don't know where else i can express my concern and fear to....=(

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i really believe what someone had said before...that "our lives on Earth is just a loan from God. He the Almighty can take the loan back again anytime He feels like it"....can He spare this innocent soul the loan???pray for this soul that he will be covered by the mercy and grace of the great Creator....

10. The Lady

I saw a lady in her mid 30s the other day. This lady attracted my attention because she was pushing a heavy load of cardboards with two little kids no older than 5 years old tagging along. On top of that, she was carrying a baby in front of her strapped to her with a piece of cloth. It was such a sight that I cannot ignore.

I sincerely salute her for her strength and courage in making the most out of her life. She worked hard in order to survive in the city with 3 young children to care for. She could have an easy way out by just sitting by the roadside and beg. I’m sure generous Malaysians would have taken pity on her. But indeed she didn’t.

And it kept me wondering what I would do if I was put to test by the Creator to go through the same situation…. Maybe I would just sit and beg and hope that people will take pity of me… many times we complain over small problems… We complain that the food does not taste good. We complain that the weather is too hot or too cold. We complain that the internet connection is too slow. And the list definitely goes on…. Can’t we be thankful for everything that we have? At least we have food to fill our stomachs. At least our senses are still working to feel the weather. At least we have laptops to go online. We humans tend to view things on the negative side…can’t we try our best to think on the better side the next time we want to complain on anything…

This lady might have complained about her life a million times. But I guess she realised the fact that life still goes on no matter how much she complains. She has to make the changes for herself and the children. And so it is also up to us to make changes in our lives instead of just sitting there complaining and hope that the changes will happen overnight by itself..