99. countdown?

i remembered the mixed feelings i had 3 years ago..

the thought of going to a foreign country..

the thought of leaving my family..

the thought of being all alone so far away..

i was excited to experience

 new things, new culture..

but yet

i was not willing to leave my comfort zone..

the only place where i know 

i would be safe and loved..

i counted the days 

excited to begin my new journey..

but yet 

i was dreading the moment 

when i had to leave..

3 years seemed like a long time then.....

but in a blink of an eye,

my 3 years is coming to an end..

and again i have all my emotions mixed up..

i look forward to going home..

to have all the food i want again..

to be with my family..

but i dread leaving this place

i have called 'home' for 3 years ..

throughout these 3 years,

friendships formed,

experience gained,

countries explored,

friendships strengthen,

and 

mind and heart opened..

shall i start counting down my days

of leaving this foreign country?

it's merely 2 months away..

so many things to do

with so little time left...

i know everything was made easy for me..

cause i am well taken care of by the love of my life..

thank You, Lord, for looking over me..

for giving me opportunities to gain more experience..

help me make full use of the remaining time i have here..

let these 2 months be used wisely..

98. a year ago...

a year ago...

things were very different...

365 days later, 

i realised that things have changed..

not sure when did it happen though..

but i'm sure it didn't happen overnight..

it was more of a gradual change..

a year ago,

friendships started,

moments were created,

fun and joy was shared..

but they are now only  memories..

something that i will look back and smile..

whether they are worth keeping 

depends

on what my future reveals..

97. are you not blessed with a healthy body?

there are so many people out there

especially those who are in hospitals

who long for a healthy and able body

so that they would be able to attend schools 

just like everyone else.....

that is just a simple wish of theirs..

but there are also many

 who wakes up everyday and decides.....

to fake an illness 

just so that they would be able to skip schools

and to sleep in...

do you not realise...

how blessed are you?

to have a healthy body..

to have a functioning brain..

to be able to move around unassisted?

to be able to run..

to be able to eat...

to be able to have fun...

to simply be blessed enough to have a school to go to...

i'm sure there are millions out there

who would be more than willing to trade places with you..

let them have a chance then...

if you are so willing to confess that you are not well

when you are as fit as a fiddle,

what's the harm of exchanging places with someone from the hospital?

let them have a chance to be in your place..

and for you to experience the pain they go through everyday because of their illness..

since you wanted to be ill so much...

96. my cupcake day

thank You for being there for me through 23 years..

thank You for every breath that i inhale..

thank You for the plans You have in mind for me..

thank You for the grace and mercy that i don't deserve..

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today is cupcake day for me..

3 lovely cupcakes presented by lovely people with lovely thoughts..

may God shower these wingless angels with blessings..

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a parcel arrived today..

a wonderful surprise that meant so very much..

it was indeed a surprise despite the obvious clue..

never would i have expected it..

and it was from my babies (that's what they called themselves)

and it was a ring..

~

~

for my ears..

*******

sweet messages from my family was enough to make my day better..

had been in SBE (School Based Experience) the whole day..

but no matter how bored it could be,

it was still a wonderfully blessed day..

Thank You for the joyful people around me

who made this day another memorable day..

95. thank God...;)

Thank You that You have made everything possible..

i am nothing without Your guidance and grace..

after months of effort,

i finally saw the product..

it's not the final product yet

but at least the overall idea is there..

just handed in my first full draft..

feedback will be coming soon..

some editing here and there later on..

that should be the end of it then...

can't wait for the end of this..

to submit my dissertation and bid goodbye..

i am gonna break up with you on 23 Mac..

after 3 months of relationship..

lots of bitter sweet moments..

this coming Saturday would be a great experience for me..or so i hope..will be going to London airport to pick up some 40 people from China..and the greatest part is that i have to speak Mandarin..my terribly broken Mandarin that has gone rusty over the years..and i would be the only one there who could understand Mandarin..oh my..oh my..i hope i would be able to understand them and more importantly for them to understand me..this opportunity does not come often and i hope i will survive the trip..it would be a good break for me after handing in my full draft..

Thank God for every little detail of my life..;)