Saturday, November 9, 2013

133. tom the peeper

it would have been a very common sight to see hands over a wall..
 but not when you're in a washroom.. 
you see one hand 
and then another hand 
as if that person is trying to climb over the wall...

mind went blank and confused..
never thought of screaming
(not like it would have been very helpful)..
only thought was to pour water over the wall..
didn't know if that person got wet..
never saw..
don't know if i would want to see that pervert..

my only hope..
it was just the beginning of the climb..


it's very weird how when your mind is calm enough to think back on the details, only then will you think of ways and things you could have done in self defense..it is only then that i regretted not pushing open the door next to it, not waiting for that person to come out, not pouring more water, not capturing a photo as proof......and the list goes on and on...of the things i could have done..on the bright side, i'm more prepared if this happens again..not that i wished for it to happen..

i'm very sure i'll be thinking more than twice to go to public toilets..especially those in restaurants..

Saturday, October 26, 2013

132.my quiet friend..

hey you..
the one with milo when i can't sleep
the one with ice cream when i'm sad
the one who compliments honestly
the one who i shared my frustration with..

it all started over a very awkward meal
of just you and me..
conversation started and you walked me back..
or rather i walked you back..

it was a very unexpected meeting
of two very quiet people
but we somehow clicked and kept in touch
till this very moment..

you might go missing once in a while..
but things were never weird when we talk..
it's like we had been talking all this while..

just want to thank you for being who you really are..
honest all the time..
understanding in every way..
real in every sense..
you have been a very important person to me..
and i thank God for putting you in my path of life..
and i miss you..

Sunday, October 6, 2013

131. you are in my thoughts..

hours passed,
days passed,
weeks passed,
months passed,
the news has yet to come..

it all happened so fast..
or so it seemed..
with all the extra time spent at home,
lots of thinking has been happening..

day dreaming,
thinking about what the future holds,
over thinking things,
refreshing memories,
reliving happy moments,
remembering unhappy moments,
imagining what could have happened..

i catch myself smiling at times
remembering silly and funny things that had happened..
relating them to the people i have been so attached to..

i wonder how long more will i be able to remember them all..
they are all precious memories
that has been placed in a special compartment in my heart and mind..
i want to remember them for as long as i can..
i want to remember all of you even after 50 years..
i want to smile at our shared moments even after all those years..


Thursday, August 29, 2013

130. this is me..being introvert

came across this article not too long ago and i felt that most of them are so true..at least to me..
just thought i would share it here..
so that you and i can read it again anytime..




 See if any of these 23 telltale signs of introversion apply to you.
1. You find small talk incredibly cumbersome.
Introverts are notoriously small talk-phobic, as they find idle chatter to be a source of anxiety, or at least annoyance. For many quiet types, chitchat can feel disingenuous.
“Let's clear one thing up: Introverts do not hate small talk because we dislike people," Laurie Helgoe writes in "Introvert Power: Why Your Inner Life Is Your Hidden Strength." "We hate small talk because we hate the barrier it creates between people.”
2. You go to parties -– but not to meet people.
If you're an introvert, you may sometimes enjoy going to parties, but chances are, you're not going because you're excited to meet new people. At a party, most introverts would rather spend time with people they already know and feel comfortable around. If you happen to meet a new person that you connect with, great -- but meeting people is rarely the goal.
3. You often feel alone in a crowd.
outsider
Ever feel like an outsider in the middle of social gatherings and group activities, even with people you know?
"If you tend to find yourself feeling alone in a crowd, you might be an introvert," says Dembling. "We might let friends or activities pick us, rather than extending our own invitations."
4. Networking makes you feel like a phony.
Networking (read: small-talk with the end goal of advancing your career) can feel particularly disingenuous for introverts, who crave authenticity in their interactions.
"Networking is stressful if we do it in the ways that are stressful to us," Dembling says, advising introverts to network in small, intimate groups rather than at large mixers.
5. You've been called "too intense."
Do you have a penchant for philosophical conversations and a love of thought-provoking books and movies? If so, you're a textbook introvert.
"Introverts like to jump into the deep end," says Dembling.
6. You're easily distracted.
While extroverts tend to get bored easily when they don't have enough to do, introverts have the opposite problem -- they get easily distracted and overwhelmed in environments with an excess of stimulation.
"Extroverts are commonly found to be more easily bored than introverts on monotonous tasks, probably because they require and thrive on high levels of stimulation," Clark University researchers wrote in a paper published in the Journal of Personality and Social Psychology. "In contrast, introverts are more easily distracted than extroverts and, hence, prefer relatively unstimulating environments."
7. Downtime doesn’t feel unproductive to you.
home lounging coffee
One of the most fundamental characteristics of introverts is that they need time alone to recharge their batteries. Whereas an extrovert might get bored or antsy spending a day at home alone with tea and a stack of magazines, this sort of down time feels necessary and satisfying to an introvert.
8. Giving a talk in front of 500 people is less stressful than having to mingle with those people afterwards.
Introverts can be excellent leaders and public speakers -- and although they're stereotyped as being the shrinking violet, they don't necessarily shy away from the spotlight. Performers like Lady Gaga, Christina Aguilera and Emma Watson allidentify as introverts, and an estimated 40 percent of CEOs have introverted personalities. Instead, an introvert might struggle more with meeting and greeting large groups of people on an individual basis.
9. When you get on the subway, you sit at the end of the bench -– not in the middle.
Whenever possible, introverts tend to avoid being surrounded by people on all sides.
"We're likely to sit in places where we can get away when we're ready to -- easily," says Dembling. "When I go to the theater, I want the aisle seat or the back seat."
10. You start to shut down after you’ve been active for too long.
Do you start to get tired and unresponsive after you've been out and about for too long? It's likely because you’re trying to conserve energy. Everything introverts do in the outside world causes them to expend energy, after which they'll need to go back and replenish their stores in a quiet environment, says Dembling. Short of a quiet place to go, many introverts will resort to zoning out.
11. You're in a relationship with an extrovert.
couple having fun
It's true that opposites attract, and introverts frequently gravitate towards outgoing extroverts who encourage them to have fun and not take themselves too seriously.
"Introverts are sometimes drawn to extroverts because they like being able to ride their 'fun bubble,'" Dembling says.
12. You'd rather be an expert at one thing than try to do everything.
The dominant brain pathways introverts use is one that allows you to focus and think about things for a while, so they’re geared toward intense study and developing expertise, according to Olsen Laney.
13. You actively avoid any shows that might involve audience participation.
Because really, is anything more terrifying?
14. You screen all your calls -- even from friends.
You may not pick up your phone even from people you like, but you’ll call them back as soon as you’re mentally prepared and have gathered the energy for the conversation.
"To me, a ringing phone is like having somebody jump out of a closet and go 'BOO!,'" says Dembling. "I do like having a long, nice phone call with a friend -- as long as it's not jumping out of the sky at me."
15. You notice details that others don't.
The upside of being overwhelmed by too much stimuli is that introverts often have a keen eye for detail, noticing things that may escape others around them. Researchhas found that introverts exhibit increased brain activity when processing visual information, as compared to extroverts.
16. You have a constantly running inner monologue.
“Extroverts don’t have the same internal talking as we do,” says Olsen Laney. “Most introverts need to think first and talk later."
17. You have low blood pressure.
2006 Japanese study found that introverts tend to have lower blood pressure than their extroverted counterparts.
18. You’ve been called an “old soul” -– since your 20s.
Introverts observe and take in a lot of information, and they think before they speak, leading them to appear wise to others.
"Introverts tend to think hard and be analytical," says Dembling. "That can make them seem wise."
19. You don't feel "high" from your surroundings
concert crowd
Neurochemically speaking, things like huge parties just aren’t your thing. Extroverts and introverts differ significantly in how their brains process experiences through "reward" centers.
Researchers demonstrated this phenomenon by giving Ritalin -- the ADHD drug that stimulates dopamine production in the brain -- to introverted and extroverted college students. They found that extroverts were more likely to associate the feeling of euphoria achieved by the rush of dopamine with the environment they were in. Introverts, by contrast, did not connect the feeling of reward to their surroundings. The study "suggests that introverts have a fundamental difference in how strongly they process rewards from their environment, with the brains of introverts weighing internal cues more strongly than external motivational and reward cues," explained LiveScience's Tia Ghose.
20. You look at the big picture.
When describing the way that introverts think, Jung explained that they're more interested in ideas and the big picture rather than facts and details. Of course, many introverts excel in detail-oriented tasks -- but they often have a mind for more abstract concepts as well.
"Introverts do really enjoy abstract discussion," says Dembling.
21. You’ve been told to “come out of your shell.”
introverts class participation
Many introverted children come to believe that there's something "wrong" with them if they're naturally less outspoken and assertive than their peers. Introverted adults often say that as children, they were told to come out of their shells or participate more in class.
22. You’re a writer.
Introverts are often better at communicating in writing than in person, and many are drawn to the solitary, creative profession of writing. Most introverts -- like "Harry Potter" author J.K. Rowling -- say that they feel most creatively charged when they have time to be alone with their thoughts.
23. You alternate between phases of work and solitude, and periods of social activity.
Introverts can move around their introverted “set point” which determines how they need to balance solitude with social activity. But when they move too much -- possibly by over-exerting themselves with too much socializing and busyness -- they get stressed and need to come back to themselves, according Olsen Laney. This may manifest as going through periods of heightened social activity, and then balancing it out with a period of inwardness and solitude.
"There's a recovery point that seems to be correlated with how much interaction you've done," says Dembling. "We all have our own private cycles."

Sunday, June 30, 2013

129. part time regent teacher, sp

my year 5..
i was teaching about the vikings and i showed them a video. they suggested that they wanted to come up with a play. i thought that was interesting though i didn't expect much from this 9-10 years old bunch of lovely kids..but oh dear..they did gave me a surprise!! they did a marvelous job with props and all. Bravo for the effort put in kids!! we all had a good laugh to see them get in and out of the ship made from cardboard. lots of laughter and fun..i sure hope you all had as much fun as i had watching the short play.

Photo: They're so cooperative and sweet..love them to bits.. God bless their  lovely souls..


my year 7..
they are a whole group of kids with random thoughts and ideas. their task was to come up with their own design of their classroom and their product was more than just a classroom. some wanted to have swimming pool in the classroom.. some wanted a big underground aquarium that they can walk under with fish swimming above them.. others wanted an underground airport so that they can have their own airplanes.. some with very high tech classroom which might be possible in 50 years to come..it was fun watching them present their thoughts and ideas. it was just funny..

i had to teach them PSHE as well and i was explaining to them about the consequences of having sex before marriage. they were so excited!! and most of them had no idea what was a condom. i tried explaining and one of them asked if i had it with me..it was an awkward moment as they waited for my answer..hmmm..sorry kids..i don't have any and i don't need it now..ask me again in another 10 years.. ;p


my year 9..
compared to my year 5 and year 7, they are very quiet with a lot of inside jokes and gossip going around..i admit i was a bit biased on them from the stories i heard from other teachers. but when i got to know them, they are lovely as they are. because they are more matured, i got to be careful of what i say as it can mean a lot of other things to them..their mind is pretty corrupted by this age.. at the end of my first week there, a boy came up to me and asked me if i hated their class. honestly, that question struck me hard.. it got me thinking a lot as to why he asked me that. i was pretty sure i treated them with respect and care. i later found out that my approach was rather different from what they had expected and they thought i hated them. well kids, that's just my approach in the beginning..things will loosen up later on..no worries..




it has just been two weeks since i started teaching in this school..i love the kids.. i can do so much of activities with them..they had no problem understanding me at all. but, i don't quite fancy the management of this place. too much protocol and what not..which made it a terrible place..but to be fair, things was a bit better in my second week..i guess i got the hang of it all..but that doesn't mean i like the way things are done..definitely a good experience..

Friday, May 31, 2013

128. pick-up-lines


just came across a really interesting article..
some cheesy yet meaningful pick-up-lines..

hey you, 
if you ever come across this post,
pick your favourite top three..

i have my own personal top three favourites ;)




1.  ”So last night I was reading in the book of Numbers, and then I realized, I don’t have yours.”
2.  ”Hey, I’m Will. God’s will.” (Tip: Your name should actually be Will)
3.  ”You put the “stud” in bible study.”
4. “Now I know why Solomon had 700 wives… He never met you!”
5.  ”I didn’t know angels flew this low.”
6. “I’m no Joseph, maybe you can help me interpreting the dreams I’ve been having about you?”
7. ”Is it hot in here or is that just the Holy Spirit burning inside of you?”
8. ”Is your name Faith? ‘Cause you’re the substance of things I’ve hoped for.”
9. ” How many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?”
10. ” I didn’t believe in predestination until tonight.”
11.  ”Is this the transfiguration? because you are glowing.”
12. ” Your hair is like a flock of goats descending from Gilead.”
13. ” Excuse me, I believe one of your ribs belongs to me.”
14. ” Let me sell you an indulgence because it’s a sin to look as good as you do.”
15. ” Me. You. Song of Songs: the remix.”
16. ” Is it a sin that you stole my heart?”
17. ” Want to practice speaking in tongues with me?”
18. ” What’s your name and number so I can add you to my “prayer” list?”
19. “I just want you to know, I’m praying for you… No, I’m praying “FOR” you.”
20. “Here’s my number… Call me if you need prayer.”
21. “I’m usually not very prophetic, but I can see us together.”

Saturday, May 18, 2013

127. unity..

what i've learnt today?
that unity comes from the hard work of every member..
that unity comes from accepting the difference
putting aside colour, race, size and gender..


unity needs effort..
people need to be humble..
to serve others..

unity needs strength..
to control one's speech and action..
to watch over the words that come out from one's mouth..
to hold and tame one's tongue..

in unity, 
everything comes to life..
in unity, 
every thought could be made real..


this video shows the strength of what unity can do..


Monday, March 11, 2013

126. teacher-like

in the class..

*good morning, teacher*
*good morning, class*
*please sit down*
*thank you, teacher*
*you are welcome*

outside..

*compliments*
*thank you*
*welcome*

so teacher like but still loving every second of it..
dear you, thank you..

125. my joy and hope..

best present ever..
to be able to experience the joy
and happiness of His blessings..

yesterday...
it was just like any ordinary day..
but with something to look forward to..
going to school only to think about going home again..
the peace and joy of that..

butterflies in the tummy..
but trying to act cool about it all..
the feeling of being a little girl all over again..
to jump with joy without showing it in public..

all my favourites in one moment..
my sport, my player..
all smiles..
me being a fan!!

things turn out better than what i had imagined..
can only be thankful for He allows it all..
opportunities that started with a lie though..
sorry..


Saturday, March 2, 2013

124. just me being cheesy..


after so many months
of missed opportunities..
today is the day..
a joyful and fruitful day..
only to me of course..

the lowness...
the tallness..
the smile..
awwwww......

the sound in my ear..
the sweetness in my eyes..
everything seemed perfect..
even the sniffing..

get well soon, dear you...
we shall meet again some day..

oh my..i just feel so cheesy right now..
this is the once in a blue moon type of post..

123. being a practicum teacher

it's been a while since i last wrote here..
been busy with lesson planning,
students,
school activities,
observations, 
and more lesson planning..

there's the highs and lows of being a practicum teacher..
students can be angels on one day..
and the next you feel like strangling them..
relationships and trust is now established in the classroom..

i love entering their classes and to meet my kids..
but i really dread the part where lesson planning is involved..
it is a joy when you find out more about your students..
their experience, their likes and dislikes..
and i think it is an accomplishment when students readily open up to me..
to know that they see me as teacher they can trust..

5 down, 7 weeks more to go..
it is a joy that practicum is going to end then..
but it would be sad to leave my kids
since they are my first batch of students..
but for now..
more observations..
more lesson planning..




on a side note:

my favourite student left the school to be in a boarding school..he cycled all the way from his house early in the morning just to inform the both of us that today is his last day.. i was so touched by his effort..he could have just left the school without saying anything..and it was very sudden..but he did what he did..it was a brief goodbye thinking that i would meet him later on in the day..but sadly, i never got to see him again..cause he went back right after meeting us..he did not even enter the class though he came to school in the morning..at 13, he is so sure of what he wants in life..never have i met a 13 year old who is so confident and focussed in life..i wish you all the best, my boy..we will meet again one day..