147. walking in the charted path of life

this post is a continuation of my previous one..

so the time came and i was away in Raub, Pahang during the Merdeka weekend. What happened to be a mistake turned out to be the best decision ever! i've learnt so much during the camp. Thank God for the moment to reflect and to redirect my purpose in life. thinking back, i can't help but feel thankful that everything worked out for the best.


1. i made the simplest mistake by assuming the camp was an hour drive from Jeli so i decided to register for the camp and paid up the next day. only then did i realised that it was actually a five hour journey!

but i still had the peace in me to proceed with the camp

2. i wasn't able to find anyone to go with from kelantan and then He sent me one to accompany me during the long drive to the camp. as i didn't know the way, it is always best to have someone with me.

3. i took a turning and it led me to an extremely winding and narrow road for 20 km only to find out that i took the wrong turning and had to turn back and go through the same winding road again. and we weren't sure of the way to get in to the camp. it was then that He sent a student who happens to stay near the camp site and he was willing to lead the way. and we got there safely after 6 hours of driving.. an additional hour for the winding road. ;( BUT IF WE DIDN'T TAKE THE WRONG TURNING AND WASTED AN HOUR, WE WOULDN'T HAVE MET THE BOY WHO JUST FINISHED HIS CLASS!! how perfect was that!!

4. i had been worried as to who i would be sharing the room with. will i be able to get along with them? and thankfully, He sent me the sweetest girl who made me feel belonged and we (the girl and her husband and i ) somehow got along really well. everyone else thought that we had known each other before this. to those who know me, i am not the type of person who makes friends easily and i need time to warm up to people but somehow He made this possible.

5. when i first met my group mates, i thought oh dear they're so quiet. but then again, how wrong was i! they have been nothing less than great! we had so much fun together and even turned out to be the champion in the games!! that's a first..hehee..they're the fittest and craziest and the most sincere bunch of people i've met.

6. i got to do flying fox, high ropes and kayaking together with them and it was such a great and fun time. great fellowship and great paparazzi shots.. ;p

7. i dread the end of the camp cause that means i will have to go back to work and the drive back was even more dreadful. i haven't been sleeping very well for the past few nights but thankfully i still had the strength and energy to drive home safely. it was by His grace that i got home safely.



from this camp, i learnt that every path in life has been charted for me. even when i walk on uncharted grounds, it has actually been already charted for me to explore the new land. How great is He!! there's still a lot to learn about being the light and salt in my market place but i'm learning everyday. may He continue to grant me the passion to create an impact in the students' lives and to have more compassion for them as they are each going through different situations in their lives. may He give me the patience and the peace to carry out my purpose in this place i'm sent.

146. very unlikely..

recently, i came across an advertisement about a church camp. i was very interested as i know the speakers and i was eager for a short getaway. it was in BELUM, GERIK (like one hour from jeli) and i thought i could just drive there even if no one else i know is going.

 so 4 days later i decided to register online. the next day, i paid the money for the camp and that very night, my mom called to ask me again where it is because my brother mentioned a different place though it is the same camp.i was still not worried and though it was just a misunderstanding. but right before i slept, i decided to just check again. and oh my..my bro was right, it is in BENUM, PAHANG!! that's like 5 hours plus from jeli. when i saw it i only laughed...and yet i was still at peace and calm..

for those who knows me it is very unlikely for me to be making such a mistake. i told my housemate and she just said "ooh..wow..this is something i would do. not you!"

i have no idea what happened to me and how it all happened. i really 'die die' thought it was in belum though i have read the advertisement many times. it's really weird..usually, i would ask a lot about a trip or a camp but this time i didn't ask anything and just went for it.

prolly there is a reason as to why all this happened..prolly i'm meant to go for this camp....

if i was aware enough, i would never have thought of going to this camp because i have to drive alone and mind you it's not a very short journey with all the winding roads..maybe there's a big purpose behind this whole big blurness!

only The Author knows the plot of the story that He has written for me..i will have to continue reading to know the continuation of this story..may He guide me through this decision..i still haven't figure out how to get there but i'm sure if He wants me to go, He will provide me with a way..

145. dreams

for the past few weeks, i have been having really randoms dreams..

sometimes i wake up with a smile..
sometimes i wake up trying to stop myself from laughing out loud..
sometimes i wake up wishing that i could find out the ending of my dream..
sometimes i wake up scared cause an accident just happened..
sometimes i wake up knowing that i could only wish..

last night, i dreamt of you..
we met at a place while having a drink..
i was about to say hi and introduced you to my friend..

but then my body suddenly decided it was too cold and i had to wake up..
i forgot my blanket..
of all time i had to feel cold...
why do you do this to me, body??
sighhhh...

and so i'll never get to find out what happened next..



back to reality....

shall we go out for a drink some time when i'm back?

144. my first anniversary as teacher..

1st April...

a date associated with pranks..

a date with memories..

a date i started my working life as a teacher..

a date i got the news of my first posting..

a date of driving long distance..

a date i saw my first school..

a date i saw a bat house..

a date of decision..

a date in the rain, finding for a place to stay..

a date of confusion and self pity..

a date of not wanting my parents to leave..

a date of loneliness despite the company..

a date which is filled with events..

a date to be remembered..

i can't believe it's been a year now..

365 days..

not too long..

nor too short..

i survived all the drama in school..

i survived the frustration of handling students..

i survived the proud moments of my students' success..

i survived the gossip of colleagues..

i survived the hectic moment in school..

i survived the long hours in school..

i survived the joy of accomplishments..

definitely a date to be remembered..