101. eternal joy..

my greatest fear is not death..

why should i fear death if it means going home

to my Heavenly Father..

a place where there is only happiness,

perfect health,

lots of love and peace..

it will be a perfect reunion..

but....

i'm afraid of not meeting my

earthly loved ones there..

i'm afraid of losing them forever..

that's my biggest fear..

life is just a borrowed thing..

unpredictable in so many ways..

you will never know when you will lose it..

or when someone would just snatch it away from you..

accidents happen,

sickness strikes,

will this very second be my last?

only He knows..

will i meet you again in the promised place?

i want to..and i hope i will..

darling,

i'm sorry that you lost your loved one..

but i am very sure that you will meet her again

in the perfect place 

in His presence..

may He comfort you 

with His everlasting love

100. 100th post marks my one-month countdown

a month from today..

that's the end of my 3 year-course..

the end of my hectic last term..

the end of my studies in the UK..

a month from today..

i'll be busy packing up..

going through all my things..

and going away for my last trip..

to Ireland..

being here..

away from home..

away from my comfort zone 

has definitely taught me a lot..

being here..

was worth the experience..

and i would not trade it in for anything..

it is my memory,

my experience,

an important part of my life..

being here,

has given me the chance..

to travel and to see the wonderful creation of the Almighty..

and to enjoy the company of my darlings..

this is the journey i have chosen..

or rather..

Someone greater has chosen this for me..

He has been my companion throughout my journey..

always looking over me..

the reason i started this blog was to record my journey and experience being abroad..but it didn't quite work out realising that after three years, it is now only the 100th post...but i have been ever so grateful for this opportunity..for me to grow up and to be more independent..

i'm not sure if i'm really looking forward to go back for good..part of me is looking forward to being home..but the other part of me longs to be able to stay longer..would it be possible to split myself in two?

will i have the chance to come again in the future? these decisions are all based on Someone's plan for me..

Thank You, Someone!!