90. i want a break up..

i have been in a relationship with you for 2 whole years..

we tend to break up and get back together again..

it happened again and again..

in the beginning

it had been sweet,

it had been lovely,

it had been meaningful,

it had been the love of my life..

but now,

i am tired of this relationship and
i want a break up..

i am ready to let it go and to move on..

cause

you have taken up too much of my time..

i am tired of trying to understand you all the time..

i am tired of explaining things to people on your behalf..

i am tired of guessing what you want to say..

i believe that this will be the best decision

for you and me..

but if we were really meant to be together,

we will make it happen again..

no matter what,

you will still be a sweet memory to me..

goodbye Shakespeare!!

i'm done with you for now!!

woohooo!!!

89. first day of cny..

this chinese new year was in one way better than last year..

i had a lovely time and

i got to enjoy the delicious meal..

eating everything i wanted

unlike last year....

all i had for cny was just porridge..

and even more porridge for a week..

all because of the stupid wisdom tooth which was not wise enough to grow properly..

but apart from the food there was nothing much to put me in the cny mood..

no video calls..

no fun conversations..

no pictures of what is going on back at home..

no cookies..

no family..

it's just a very very ordinary day..

with lots of thoughts and longing..

i miss you all a lot!!!

88. 3rd CNY...away...

(this two little ones have been on the wall of my house for 3 years now)

 this is now my third year away from home..

my third year missing out on reunion dinner..

my third year missing out on the fun..and

my third year of not being able to spend it with my loved ones..

but this would also be my final year of all the things i'm missing out on..

can't wait for next CNY though this one is not officially celebrated yet..

but how i wished i could be there to complete the family..

sorry gong gong and por por..

 i won't be home again this CNY..

but i will be there next year..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR..!!

87. i will still smile

even if you've hurt me,

betrayed me,

lied to me..,

i will still smile

cause

there are still people around me who i want to smile to..

and now, i can smile all day long..cause

 i'm glad to say that my life does not include you..

86. new year, new term

the phrase "time flies" does not really apply in my life anymore. it seemed to be moving faster than that.. but i can't think of a word to substitute "fly" though.. and.. the holiday came and it's going to end in a few hours.. what have i done so far? nothing much..

-Spain for 4 days

-hibernation started right after the trip

-did my 1000 word for a chapter 

-watching dramas and movies

-bro came for a week to visit

there! 3 weeks of winter break summarised..

so now,it's probably time to get my thoughts and energy focused on my course again..but it would be busier than usual..because the management people seemed to think that it would be fun to squeeze in whatsoever module they can think of for us to learn during our third year..

~may the great You be my pillar of strength and to sustain me through all of these..

~may the great You be my light of guidance in my every thought and action..

p/s: happy birthday dearest friend..;) thanks for being you..