A week ago, as one of my juniors was sharing her testimony in a prayer meeting, it felt like she was telling my story. Everything that she shared was so closely related to what I have been going through in 8 months. All the waiting and the uncertainties of being jobless, all the unanswered questions, doubts and disappointment. It can be very depressing but why torture oneself with all these burdens, right?
I am a strong believer that God has His own timing in everything. Well, if he can ensure that the birds in the sky are well fed even in winter and the flowers beautifully clothed, how much more will He not look over me in terms of my financial needs and job. So, why worry?
Often, I've heard people who are working complained about how busy they are and wished that they can have a break from work, to take leave and have a day off. Some teachers can't wait for the school holidays so that they can relax and go for a holiday trip. Me on the other hand have plenty of time to spare and relax. I'm not bragging in any way but I just figured out why bother worrying about getting a job now that He has blessed me with the time to rest. Perhaps, this is the time to grow spiritually, to develop a stronger bond with my family, to prepare myself mentally (and maybe to be physically fit) for my future posting to wherever it may be. Resting is only temporary but I can imagine myself working for at least the next 20 years..So, why worry? Rest more before going into the battlefield which in my case will be a battle with my future students and school managements.
