122. taking risks

"God risked Himself on me,

I will risk myself on you. 

And together, we will learn to love,

and perhaps then, and only then, 

understand this gravity that drew Him unto us"

Donald Miller

121. countdown to being home..

after so many years 

of knowing each other,

it is a pity to know how little you understand me..

i was angry on your behalf,

but instead you were angry at me for that..

i pitied you for what you have been through,

but you see it as my fault that you have to go through them..

i made my own decision to be happy,

but you felt that i should have stick with you through thick and thin..

i've tried my best to accommodate..

to the very point that i've started to ignore..

just so that i won't get too angry and frustrated over you..

you can do unto others and yet we can be alright with it..

leaving things for the benefit of doubts..

but when it is done unto you,

a big fuss is created..

what do you really expect from us??

oh Lord, help me forgive them

for they do not know what they re doing..

frustrations aside,

my miserable experience is finally coming to an end..

just another 12 days to survive in this place..

and i'll be home again soon..

but then again..

for now i have to hang in there with very busy schedule..

by God's grace and mercy these will soon be over..