118. there!! i hope you read this!!!

it's been 2 months plus 

since i started my final year here in Kelantan..

and throughout the whole time 

all i can think of that is positive 

is that i am nearer to my family 

where i can run back to anytime..

this place itself is not that bad..

assignments though stressful is still very bearable,

food even though limited is still bearable,

curfew and stupid rules is still tolerable,

but why of all the people 

it's you making my life a hell here..

disappointment is an understatement

i've lost all respect for you in every way..

this final year should be a time of sweet memories..

but why do you make me hate you more everyday..??

you might think that we will thank you

but in actual fact you're pushing us to the edge 

and all we feel like doing now is to curse you 

and to jump off the edge just to get away from you..

why of all the days in the world 

do you have to choose that very day

that all of us are looking forward to?

why do you have to take away the only time 

we can have fun and to meet the others before they graduate??

why do you have to be such a female dog!!??

don't go behind our backs making decision for us..

we are no longer the kids we were..

and we won't thank you for that..

don't we have the rights to say no to things??

we are not your slaves for goodness sake!!

it's such an irony that you're teaching us about professionalism..

and about reflective teaching..

do you even reflect??

is this even professional??

dear God..please help this woman realise what she is doing!!